Perception is everything－Miss Lucia

After leaving my bank job, a simple question often came to my mind. That is, what am I made of? After leaving a comfortable environment, I somewhat felt it is partially difficult to define who I am. If I were to write one simple sentence just like a mission statement in order to define who I am and what I want to achieve in life, what would I write at this point?

Before the event, I think I could simply define everything and maybe with something like "but I'm not sure if working at the bank is my passion" at the end of the sentence. However, now I found myself even having a hard time to begin the sentence.

Life could be amazing and confusing at the same time. When you know what you want, it is amazing. When you are confused, it feels like the whole world is stuffed with dark clouds which are hard to see through.

I'm not so sure which situation I am in right now.

Some say take it easy, it is just a corner of your life which doesn't worth stressing over if you look at the big picture.

To me, somehow everything I could relate to the butterfly effect. I don't want to alter the result just because one tiny screws goes into the wrong place.

And back to the original thought, what defines me as an individual? Is it the job I have, the building I work at, friends I hang out with, and the guy I'm dating?

Or is it none of the above? Should one just focus on what he/she is contributing to the society and the changes he/she are making to the world?

Some things are so superficial, but they still influence perceptions of people or even myself toward one thing.

Maybe the day when I forget all about materialism and finally see through those things that don't matter in the long run, I will be able to figure out what it is that I really want in life.